So I've finally finished the hardest part of my album, which is the
lyrics & melody. Also finished the beat production. This took me
over 2 years just to reach this point, but I'm forever thankful &
grateful because I've challenged myself in pushing boundries which I
thought i'd never reach & actaully reached them. I've always wanted
to rap in triplets just like the Migos & I did it. I've always
wanted to a rap freestyle without a hook/chorus & I did it. A lot of
other things I've done which I'm buzzing about 100%. If you push
yourself, you can really make it happen...Tommorw I'll be in the
studio to start the recording process.... ayyyyyyyyyy, finally.
I miss the days when music videos were only on TV. The internet has ruined that anticipation of waiting to see a video only at a certain day/time, catching it when you can. If you miss it, you miss it.
2017 .... approximately 4 years ago, I released my
first music project. Mad that. Time flies sooo quickly. I remember
exactly the stress of the pre-release & preparing for it to be
released on time (bare in mind I knew nothing about how to release
music, I was a rookie & still am in a way). But once it was out, the
sense of relief I felt was amazing, especially knowing that I've
never put out anything professionally before.
There was only like 4 tracks on there (2 of them with my vocals),
but that didnt matter to me. The fact that my music was out there to
the public to cop was a stepping stone. A step which I thought would
open doors. Though I was happy, I had many moments of doubt &
anxiety which still plagues me now. 'What ifs' constantly ran
through my mind daily. (I'm an over thinker, maybe thats why I always
feel drained....but anyways lol). I was worried the time spent in
the studio and at home, perfecting the music, would be in vain if I
didnt get the desired results. I always hated posting on social
media when it pertained to me, and still do. Like no one needs to
know my business, but doing that has got me no where ha. I need to
stop being so stubborn and change things which would benefit my
life.
19/06/21